tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1620800315071767228.post123959119488689559..comments2023-11-02T07:25:58.447-06:00Comments on Mending Hearts and Bending Knees: A Shorter Wait?Amy Koslowskihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15614092149616333620noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1620800315071767228.post-32403038074888596492013-05-14T13:39:09.237-06:002013-05-14T13:39:09.237-06:00HI Amy,
As I read your blog today I was struck ...HI Amy, <br /> As I read your blog today I was struck with the similar feelings you and I have been having this week. I too have been at a place of utter despair and exhaustion...much of it mental due to something someone said to me about a week ago that reminded me of the one thing I have wanted most and prayed for many , many years (at least 13)and God has not given me...yet He freely gave to someone I know. Someone who hadn't even been praying for it, no less. I was absollutely run over with the truth that God chose to fullfill a promise in scripture to my brother in Christ, and not me. Satan was sly...he has been lying cool, somewhat leaving me alone for a while so my guard was down. I hadn't prayed my spiritual armour on in a while. So, out of no where the attack came. It was hard and fast and continual. I didn't have time to breathe...only cry and weep and whine and tell God I was in all honesty pissed off at Him. It all seemed too much, the years of praying. And then, all I could see was what I didn't have- the one thing I've prayed for ... I STILL didnt' have. All the years of torment this one unanswered prayer has brought me and my children. I was a festering ball of flesh. Just so defeated and starting to feel bitterness well up where there had once been hope and trust in my Father. <br /> Praise be to God, several days ago I was going through a book with my kids called "who am I". Of course, as teh Holy Spirit so perfectly orchestrated I came to a chapter about the importance of our minds. I prayed for the renewing of my mind and God delivered me from my negatice thought pattern I seemed stuck in. But, with a vengance, the attacks returned the next day...it didn't seem as easy to recover my mind. Then the book startedin on the scripture in Philp 4:8 about what I SHOULD think about and teh power our thoughts have over us. God has empowered me with an amazing truth that fully delivered me from negative emotions that were overpowering me. I was set free from them. I feel so light. My situation hasn't changed Amy, I am still living in the midst of this turmoil. But, I have given the battle over to JEsus. I told him, if he lets the devil kill me and kill my family, then it was up to him. It was now fully HIS , JEsus'job to defend and fight for this cause that I KNOW is the will of God. I am no longer trying to manipulate situations or try and control the madness. I am just chooseing to PRAISE GOD no matter what... no-matter-what. <br /> I want to encourage you to take yoru thoughts captive unto Christ and bath in God's word, in His truths and stop thinking about what you dont' have, that you rightly want...but don't have. Stop looking at others who have the desire of YOUR heart today- and look at what you have. You are greatly blessed, my Sister, greatly blessed. Life is hard, in different ways for us all. And God's timing seems to be so incredibely slow. Do what Paul says in Phil 4:8.<br /> Every thought is a seed. Don't plant destruction and negativity into your life...plant the seeds you want to reap the harvest of. <br /> God bless you, dear one. Much love and prayers...StephanieAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1620800315071767228.post-65766188450817550322013-05-14T04:52:26.852-06:002013-05-14T04:52:26.852-06:00God's family is so amazing. Glad your allowin...God's family is so amazing. Glad your allowing your "family" to help. God will bless them for doing so. Wish I lived closer myself. Continuing to pray for you and your family. Hugs from afar...LeeAnnehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12221478557622213885noreply@blogger.com