Today marks the halfway point in our pregnancy, 20 weeks until we arrive at our due date and know that, if we have yet to deliver...the doctors will make it happen! We look forward to holding our Hope and seeing her face for the first time. The last few days I have started to feel numb in a way and worried that I wasn't constantly crying any longer. As I was driving today I finally realized that I wasn't numb, I was experiencing peace.
We already feel that our little girl has so much purpose. Her heart may be 1/2 the size it should be but her impact is so much greater in this world as a result. She has already been a testimony of faith and hope in Jesus Christ. Can you be proud of a child that has yet to be born? I have a feeling she's going to be a pretty tough little girl.
Thank you everyone for your continued encouragement to our family and your prayers for Hope. We are blessed by the support that surrounds us and we feel stronger standing with each of you around us.
We've been keeping ourselves busy by setting up a 'Big Girl' room for Sadie. It's coming together nicely and although we have no idea when we'll move her into it, it's a wonderful distraction. We do plan to ready the nursery for Hope before we leave for Edmonton. It's a step of faith as we can only pray we are able to bring her home with us. It's important for me to move forward in faith and stay as positive as possible, it's a way to protect myself from allowing doubt to consume me.
Tonight is Shawn's company Christmas party. We're looking forward to a date night and the opportunity to sleep in tomorrow morning! Sadie will be with her Oma and Opa and we know she'll be having a blast as they love her like crazy. I'm sure she'll get her hands on a treat or two if she asks often enough :).
Over the next 20 weeks we'll be sure to post any information we receive from scans or appointments we have at the doctor. It'll be a long wait but we'll make it to April before we know it!