These are wonderful steps in the right direction and are getting us closer to Calgary. Having been burned in the past, when we thought we were doing well and almost lost her, optimism is a somewhat scary thing. We truly fear it in some ways because the disappointment is so painful. Instead, I'm thankful for every small victory, but being cautious of getting carried away with how well she's doing. She still has sickness in her lungs and isn't breathing as well as she should be. We can only pray that this improves each day and we don't take any steps backwards.
The best part of today was cuddling with my little girls. I spent some one-on-one time with Sadie in the morning and Hope in the afternoon! You know it's time for a cuddle when you sit beside Hope and wonder if you could pick her up when the nurse isn't looking and manage to avoid any of the alarms going off on the machines. I did restrain myself, and at 4:45 today, I got to hold Hope for the first time in 10 long days. It feels so good to have her in my arms and I look forward to being able to care for her at home some day.
We are hoping that the doctors will give us some idea of when they think we'll be able to head home at rounds tomorrow. Now that Hope is off the breathing machines, there isn't a lot of reason for us to be here. It will come down to the surgeon. He gets to make the final decision and will likely be hesitant because of what happened last time. We may also run into problems if there are no beds available in Calgary. We've been told that this could delay us as well.
Hope is now on 16 ml. of breast milk an hour. This is the most she's ever received! Her sugars have come up a bit, but not enough to cut back on the glucose supplements they've been giving her. We need them to come up a bit more and are hopeful that the feeding with help. It's nice to finally have some use for the mass amounts of milk we've been storing.
Please continue to pray Hope's infection and her healing, our return to Calgary at some point and for Hope's glucose levels. Please also continue to pray for Sadie. She does so well when we keep her with us all day and just trade off at the hospital. It's very difficult for us to do, but works wonders in her feeling of security and behavior. Tomorrow I hope to spend most of the day with Hope in my arms!!